《半生心迹》一:咽下去的东西

坐北朝南

<p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"> 半生走过,话说得轻了,也重了。轻的未必是安慰,重的未必是怨。都是心迹,留此存照。</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><b>1、清宁</b></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">他们说安宁是关窗。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">我信过。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">窗关死了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">风从缝里进来,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">从骨头缝里。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">后来我全打开。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">风进来,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">灯不灭。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">灯为什么还亮着?</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">因为砸窗的力气,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">也耗光了。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">现在我坐着,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">听心跳,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">听不见。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">它没死,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">它只是学会了</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">在别人的喧嚣里闭嘴。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">闭嘴久了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">就成了清宁。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">清宁是个好词,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">好到没人问你,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">咽下去的是什么。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><b>2、灯火</b></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">推门,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">饭香,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">一声“回来啦”。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">这三个字,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">卸得下一天,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">卸不下半辈子。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">这盏灯,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">不是人人有。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">没有的人,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">怕天黑,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">更怕开灯。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">灯一亮,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">屋子满着,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">人空着,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">空得能听见回声。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">回声也在等谁。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">等不到。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">所谓归处,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">是有人等你。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">没人等,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">房子再暖,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">也是借住。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">借久了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">连钥匙都懒得配。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">配了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">也不知道交给谁。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><b>3、茧</b></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">得到时狂喜,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">失去时沉沦。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">人之常情。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">能做到不喜不沉,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">多半是痛够了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">痛到知道</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">争也争不回什么。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">随缘不是看破。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">是看过之后,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">把心磨出一层茧。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">心无增减。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">是茧厚了,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">不是伤没了。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p> <p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">别把麻木当豁达。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">这两样,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">长得太像。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">像到你分不清的那天,</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1">就都叫它豁达。</p><p class="ql-block ql-indent-1"><br></p>