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<p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">五十年前的夏夜,天心阁旧城墙下,月色稀薄,蟬蛐声声。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">十八岁的姑娘林晚与二十岁的小伙陈树,一前一后踩着青草碎影。全程无语,风却知情。两颗年轻的心干净透亮,认定彼此便是终生归宿。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">奈何年少情深,抵不过俗世桎梏。门第悬殊,人情碾压,父母强阻。几番挣扎,最后只在公交站遥遥一别。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">转身,青春落幕。</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">此后半生,两人各自入世,各自安稳。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">林晚嫁的男人敦厚温良,一生待她周全。烟火岁岁,三餐安稳,儿女满堂。在外人眼里,她一生平顺无虞。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">只有她自知,这数十年的婚姻,是安稳,是依托,是亲情,唯独没有心动。长夜枕畔,岁岁朝夕,身边始终有人,心底却始终空旷。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">陈树亦是这般半生。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">娶妻,持家,度日,一生规矩本分。妻子贤淑,家事妥帖,岁月无波。他尽责一生,温和一生,平淡一生。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">唯独,从未爱过一生。</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">岁月如磨,磨尽青丝,磨出褶皱,磨得人间所有热烈,只剩温凉。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">古稀之年,宿命忽然撤去了所有枷锁。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">两桩晚年丧事,先后落土。相伴数十年的枕边人安然辞世,困住他们一辈子的责任、名分、世俗牵绊,一一归零。</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">深秋午后,天清日软。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">白发苍苍的陈树,缓步走到昔日初恋的林晚门前。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">她倚门而立,他立在阶下。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">数十年未敢对视的深情,此刻终于坦荡相对。风霜压弯了脊背,染白了鬓角,可眼底残存的微光,仍是年少模样。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">他只轻轻一句:“往后,我陪你。”</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">晚岁光阴,慢得温柔。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">他们晨起沿古城墙徐行,暮来檐下闲坐。晒太阳,剥瓜子,说些陈年细碎。半生错过的朝夕,迟暮一一补回。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">没有轰轰烈烈,只有妥帖安稳。这些日子,是一生真正爱过、真正拥有、真正属于他俩的时光。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">数月,陈树骤然病故。俩人相守,不满百日。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">往后日子,她依旧独居老屋。晨起扫庭,暮坐看霞,举止安然,神色平静。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">旁人叹她命苦,半生离别,百日缘尽,换来的只是晚景孤寂。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;"> </span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:20px;">她对之淡然一笑:上苍对我不薄,我知足了!</span></p>