《独乐寺之殇》

印象诗人、作家哲骧

<p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">一、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">你从辽代的灰泥中长出脊骨时</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">并不知道</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">有一场雪会落在天宝十五年的清晨</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">渔阳的鼓</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">被安禄山的指尖叩响</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">鼓声翻过独乐寺的矮墙</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">翻过李白醉倒的酒楼</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">翻过杨国忠的玉笏板</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">最终</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">落进华清池的温泉里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">烫伤了那一年的牡丹</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">二、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">那些将军</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">披着吐蕃进贡的锁子甲</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">跪在观音阁的阴影里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">他们的誓言</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">像香炉中的灰</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">轻得</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">压不住一颗反叛的心</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">三、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">白塔记得</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">那一碗碗烈酒如何被摔碎</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">碎瓷片割开盛唐的丝绸</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">血流了整整八年</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">长安的灯火一盏盏熄灭</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">像被羯鼓震落的星子</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">四、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我独自站在山门前</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">抚摸那块带凹痕的条石</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">有人告诉我</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">那是拴马石</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">拴过范阳节度使的白马</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">马眼里映着</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">一个即将崩溃的帝国</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">五、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">独乐寺什么也不说</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">斗拱咬住时间的咽喉</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">千手观音的手指</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">根根指向北方</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">那里是范阳</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">是叛军最先出发的地方</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">六、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">风穿过檐角的风铎</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">声音像极了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">当年未送出的急报</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">如果那一夜</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">有人拦住那匹向北的马</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">历史会不会</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">在独乐寺的台阶上</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">拐一个弯?</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">七、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">没有如果</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">只有八百年的燕山月</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">照着寺前的石狮子</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">石狮子的瞳孔里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">凝固着一个王朝</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">最后的冬天</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">八、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">如今我来这里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">不是为了凭吊一个叛将</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">而是为了一场</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">过于仓促的告别</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">告别那个</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">在鼓声中碎掉的自己</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">告别每一颗</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">曾经相信盛世永固的心</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">九、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">独乐寺还在</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">飞檐挑起今天的云</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">檐下的燕</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">已经不是唐代的那一只</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">但鸣叫声里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">依然带着</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">铁锈和血的味道</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">十、</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">当夕阳</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">把观音阁的影子拉得很长很长</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">长到可以触到</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">安禄山埋骨的那片荒野</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我终于听懂</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">这座寺的悲鸣——</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">它从来没有独乐过</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">它只是用了一千三百年的沉默</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">替一个时代</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">守灵</span></p>