<p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">照片自拍2024年夏天</span></p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;"> 深夜暴雨还打雷，睡前很闷热，开着窗。我赶紧起来关窗。</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;"> 1983年的夏天，3岁儿子在复兴公园看花。儿子当时还是气呼呼的，小人儿他难以消气，伤的深他才气性大。</span></p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">1983年的故事</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">从我消逝的岁月里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">掠过我记忆的脑海</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">今天以独特的独白式抒情</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">今天我是心灵的诗人</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">一匹北方的小马驹</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">来到南方的田野</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">独自咀嚼初春的嫩草</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">小马驹还应搂在妈妈的怀里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">妈妈却放开了小马驹</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">外婆住院了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">小马驹在外婆朋友家寄放</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">小马驹很乖</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">在人家住了一个月</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">还会在下雨天</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">帮着人家搬回小板凳</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">3岁儿子</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我第一次带他到上海</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">友人带他出去</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">弄丢了他</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">丢了40多分钟</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">当我找到他时</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">乖乖的小人儿在原地站着</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">他不动也不哭</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我却抱着瘦小的3岁儿子</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">搂在怀里哭了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">假如弄丢找不到了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我也不活了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">活着也成疯女人</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">友人说她儿子给我</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">那能一样吗！</span></p> <p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">儿子3岁那年</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我把他留在了外婆家</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">但他从未离开过妈妈</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">以为妈妈不要他了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">凄惨的妈呀妈呀的哭叫着</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">孤独的小人儿</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">他在上海谁也不认识</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">可怜的3岁儿子</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">只知道妈妈不要他了</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">当时他拼命的哭着</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">我一个月后回上海</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">把他搂在怀里</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">抱回了北方</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">瘦小的3岁儿子</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">回到北方爷爷的火炕上</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">炕头跑到炕尾</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">爷爷说：可把这孩子欢的</span></p><p class="ql-block"><span style="font-size:22px;">奶奶说：当妈的谁也不会这样做</span></p>