我的精神支柱崩塌了

周仙花(心情记录原创)

<p class="ql-block">let me no longer dare to trust human nature;you have overturns my cognition;you have undermines my worldview;my beliefs are shattered;you have disintegration my outlook on lifetime;my spiritual pillar has collapsed;...</p> <p class="ql-block">I m always know,all the things,he not love me:so they set a common goal,create common ground for your relationship;they deliberately made enemies of me;maliciously exploiting my emotions;intentionally pastime with my sincerity;on purpose intent came along with that slut to hurt me;</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">during these six or seven years,he had a quarrel with that slut bitch,he pretended to be deeply affection,pretending to be affectionate and earnest,he honking the car horn crazily downstairs from my place 📣.the will recce foot printing,in every January at the doorstep of my hometown.the sound of his crazy car horn,drive away my love affairs one by one,wasting six or seven years of my precious youth.pretending to be affectionate and earnest,every year it chases me to the door of my hometown.because I know,he has been keeping a sexual partner around for a long time.so I have been rejecting his pursuit all along.</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">that bitch also brings along other girls and often shows up at the doorstep of my workplace,gossip and point fingers gesticulating there,make irresponsible remarks,then several girls walked past with their mouths covered and deride,treat me as a joke,spread rumors and gossip there.a few years ago,I repeatedly and emphatically stated that:"so far,I haven't met that trashy man at all."when she saw my concession,she became more and more arrogant domineering.then the gangster threatened me by shouting: "bump into kill me!"and let the thugs smash my window,"she's still enjoy it," continued like this for over six or seven years.I have endured so many innocent injuries over the past six or seven years.six or seven years,countless days and nights,she made me hate her deeply in my heart.</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">transpositional consideration,stand in my shoes.</p><p class="ql-block">they treat me as a spare tire,as a bridge for their love communication;they treat me as a spare tire,as the touchstone of their love;they consider it as a spare tire,as a seasoning for their love;</p><p class="ql-block">it's been six or seven years,so far.I have never formal met that rubbish guy in person yet.backwards and forwards in the find defy and taunt in front of me;in front of me,find a sense of existence,a sense of achievement,and a sense of superiority;just let want me,becoming a joke in someone else's language;they measure their loyalty to love by the extent to which they hurt me;friends who have known each other for over a decade,'so many years, so many years'!they built their happiness on my pain;</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">they never put me in others'shoes to consider my feelings,but their enjoy was like this behaviour,because they lasted for six or seven years.their kind of badness,is overflows from the bones and genes.I never thought anyone could be so bad,so immoral;their kind of badness,is overflows from the bones and genes.//they overturned my worldview,//shattered my beliefs,//hindered my understanding of human nature,//and caused me to doubt myself for a while in life.……</p>