又说撒娇

燕儿

<p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">祥蛇新岁,本命复临。</p><p class="ql-block">六十载光阴悄然而逝,</p><p class="ql-block">岁月的辙痕已深深刻下。</p><p class="ql-block">与友闲谈往昔之际,</p><p class="ql-block">青春旧事纷至沓来。</p><p class="ql-block">挚友忽问:</p><p class="ql-block">“燕儿,汝可曾撒娇?”</p><p class="ql-block">我于记忆长河中回溯良久,</p><p class="ql-block">终涩然应道:“未曾。”</p><p class="ql-block">生于五女之家,</p><p class="ql-block">身为长女,</p><p class="ql-block">未有兄长庇佑。</p><p class="ql-block">家之成分,</p><p class="ql-block">仿若阴霾,</p><p class="ql-block">童年尽是欺凌磨难。</p><p class="ql-block">椿萱为生计奔波劳顿,</p><p class="ql-block">生活飘摇,</p><p class="ql-block">惶惶不可终日。</p><p class="ql-block">我既为长姐,</p><p class="ql-block">亦如亲母,</p><p class="ql-block">唯求能解双亲烦忧,</p><p class="ql-block">护佑小妹,</p><p class="ql-block">撒娇之举,</p><p class="ql-block">自是奢望。</p><p class="ql-block">犹记三岁之前,</p><p class="ql-block">父影朦胧,</p><p class="ql-block">曾坐于父肩,</p><p class="ql-block">手挽父耳,</p><p class="ql-block">稚子嬉戏,</p><p class="ql-block">虽短暂若朝露,</p><p class="ql-block">却暖彻心扉。</p><p class="ql-block">未料变故骤起,</p><p class="ql-block">草庐栖身,</p><p class="ql-block">寒风刺骨,</p><p class="ql-block">饥肠辘辘。</p><p class="ql-block">怀中小妹尚需呵暖,</p><p class="ql-block">求生之艰,</p><p class="ql-block">让撒娇之念早绝于心。</p><p class="ql-block">既入学堂,</p><p class="ql-block">随父漂泊,</p><p class="ql-block">严父在侧,</p><p class="ql-block">催我早熟。</p><p class="ql-block">八岁操持浣洗之事</p><p class="ql-block">,十岁研习织纫之技,</p><p class="ql-block">食于庠序,</p><p class="ql-block">岁月漫漫。</p><p class="ql-block">生性顽皮,</p><p class="ql-block">责难常加,</p><p class="ql-block">畏父之威,</p><p class="ql-block">撒娇之念何敢萌生?</p><p class="ql-block">岁月流转,</p><p class="ql-block">父渐垂暮,</p><p class="ql-block">慈爱尽付孙辈,</p><p class="ql-block">我见之怅然若失。</p><p class="ql-block">及年长,</p><p class="ql-block">未修温婉之态,</p><p class="ql-block">未曾牵双亲之手娇啼,</p><p class="ql-block">随性而为,</p><p class="ql-block">质朴天然。</p><p class="ql-block">爱与儿郎逐闹,</p><p class="ql-block">身着新衣亦如小子,</p><p class="ql-block">意气风发。</p><p class="ql-block">入世方觉,</p><p class="ql-block">征途坎坷,</p><p class="ql-block">勤勉未必有成,</p><p class="ql-block">见善撒娇之同僚诸事皆顺,</p><p class="ql-block">我心虽有戚戚,</p><p class="ql-block">亦守本心刚强。</p><p class="ql-block">岁月悠悠,</p><p class="ql-block">那人曾嗔怒:</p><p class="ql-block">“怎有这般女子,</p><p class="ql-block">竟不知撒娇!”</p><p class="ql-block">我愤而驳之,</p><p class="ql-block">而后静思,</p><p class="ql-block">不禁黯然神伤。</p><p class="ql-block">数十载相伴,</p><p class="ql-block">我未通撒娇之妙,</p><p class="ql-block">偶耍小性,</p><p class="ql-block">权当娇嗔。</p><p class="ql-block">犹记昔日,</p><p class="ql-block">以袜相戏,</p><p class="ql-block">致其嗔怒,</p><p class="ql-block">亦为情长别样。</p><p class="ql-block">撒娇者,</p><p class="ql-block">乃女子之独特才情也,</p><p class="ql-block">身姿婀娜,</p><p class="ql-block">情意绵绵,</p><p class="ql-block">求悦于人,</p><p class="ql-block">以偿所愿。</p><p class="ql-block">文人赞其为女儿娇态,</p><p class="ql-block">贤达称其为福泽之途,</p><p class="ql-block">志摩笔下之娇羞,</p><p class="ql-block">令君子心驰神往。</p><p class="ql-block">男儿皆爱女子柔媚态,</p><p class="ql-block">朱唇轻抿,</p><p class="ql-block">莲足轻跺,</p><p class="ql-block">星眸流盼,</p><p class="ql-block">柔荑轻摆,</p><p class="ql-block">珠泪盈盈,</p><p class="ql-block">惹人怜惜。</p><p class="ql-block">擅撒娇之女子,</p><p class="ql-block">如有灵犀在心,</p><p class="ql-block">常得恩宠。</p><p class="ql-block">然我非此娇柔之人,</p><p class="ql-block">独对岁月霜寒。</p><p class="ql-block">不擅撒娇,</p><p class="ql-block">又何妨?</p><p class="ql-block">坚毅独立,</p><p class="ql-block">乃我羽翼。</p><p class="ql-block">独处之时,</p><p class="ql-block">自爱自怜,</p><p class="ql-block">亦是生命华光。</p><p class="ql-block">幸与不幸,</p><p class="ql-block">且任风吟,</p><p class="ql-block">我自毅然前行,</p><p class="ql-block">无娇无媚,</p><p class="ql-block">亦绽光芒。</p>