当路程结束的时候,留下的是诗:记北大84级校友屈木禾

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<h3>又一位拔丝离开了我们,这一次,仍然是那么突然。</h3> <h3>今天上午,在北大84级微信群,看见同学转发的这个消息。</h3> <h3><font color="#167efb">To Muhe’s (木禾) friends and acquaintances, It is with my shattered heart to let you know that my dear brother, Muhe, took his own life on July 10, 2020 at Beijing home, two days before his fifty-sixth birthday, while suffering a severe depression. Muhe is survived by his ex-wife, his daughter, his brother and sister-in-law, and two nephews. Muhe had battled with bi-polar depression four times in the last thirty years before this. Each time he came out a winner - finished his degree, worked as a legal translator, supported our parents, and lived a productive life. &nbsp;This time, after attending my aging mother at her bedside for over six months last year, the sleepless days and nights took a heavy toll on his mental condition, and eventually proven to be too destructive for him to overcome. Now we only take the comfort that he is at a place where he is finally resting in peace and free from mental suffering. Muhe is unassuming, kind, generous, and always willing to help. He is a kid in his heart. He loved his daughter and his nephews, and he’s loved by them. He is our hero, and we are so proud of him. He will forever live in our hearts. For those of you who continue to call him friend, I’m sure one day we’ll reunite and relive the happy days again. For one last time, for Muhe, I thank you for your friendship, and your past help and support. I bid you health and peace. Muhe’s brother, Benhe (本禾) (If you know anyone who knows Muhe, please forward this to him or her. If you want to connect, you can reach me at ‪bxq@hotmail.com‬.) 至木禾的朋友和熟人, 我以沉痛的心情通知你我亲爱的哥哥木禾于2020年7月10日在他五十六岁生日的前两天,在北京的家中结束了自己的生命,当时他正患着严重的抑郁症。 木禾生后家属有他的前妻,他的女儿,他的弟弟和弟媳,和两个侄子。 在此之前的30年中,木禾曾与双向抑郁症作过四次搏斗,每次他都战胜病魔 - 取得学位,担任法律翻译,孝顺并奉养我们的父母,过着富有成效的生活。这次,在去年在我年迈母亲的床旁照顾了她六个多月后,失眠的白天和黑夜对他的精神状况造成了严重的损伤,最终使他无法克服。现在我们唯一能感到安慰的是他终于到了一个可以安息和没有精神痛苦的地方。 木禾谦虚,友善,慷慨而且乐于助人。他内心是个孩子。他爱他的女儿和他的侄儿们,也受到他们的爱。他是我们的英雄,我们为他感到骄傲。他将永远活在我们的心中。如果你继续称他为朋友,我相信有一天我们会重新团聚并重温快乐的日子。 <br></font></h3><h3><font color="#167efb">最后一次,代表木禾,我感谢您的友情和您过去对他的帮助和支持。我祝您健康、平安。 木禾的弟弟本禾 (如果你知道有谁认识木禾,请将此信息转给他。如果你想联系,请用 ‪bxq@hotmail.com‬ 与我联系。)</font><br></h3> <h3>读完之后,大脑一片空白。这是说的屈木禾吗?木木,老木頭,那个善良的,纯粹的,风趣的人,就这么走了吗?</h3> <h3>赶紧去翻他的朋友圈,果然从4月底,就没再更新。</h3> <h3>我和屈木禾是2017年加为微信好友的。那个时候,为了迎接2018年的北大84级毕业三十年大聚,我张罗了一些活动,包括寻找失联校友。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>英语系的汪勇曾是校园小乐队的骨干。毕业后他就与大家失去联系。寻找他的过程出乎意料的顺利,通过网友,我们很快知道汪勇在重庆的一家精神病院。</h3> <h3>区勇是汪勇的同宿舍兄弟,他决定去重庆探望汪勇。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>这时候屈木禾加了我好友,说他也会和区勇一起去重庆。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>后来,屈木禾跑北大,给汪勇办下来肄业证书。还给汪勇买了有北大标志的帽子。</h3> <h3>不久之后,区勇、屈木禾和汪勇,这三位北大英语系的同班同学,在毕业近三十年后,在重庆又见面了。</h3> <h3>(左起:区勇、汪勇、屈木禾)</h3> <h3>出走半生,历经沧桑,大家在这种情况下见了面。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>汪勇戴的帽子,就是屈木禾为他买的 </h3> <h3>老同学见面,非常开心,唱了许多歌。到了分手的时候,三个人默默无言,谁也不知道下一次见面是什么时候。</h3> <h3>我后来才知道,屈木禾与汪勇在大学的时候来往极少。屈木禾是老老实实的乖学生,汪勇爱玩爱唱。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>这就是老木頭,可以为一个大学时几乎没说过话,又30年不见的校友,放下手头的各种事物,千里迢迢去看一眼的老木頭 。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>就像他弟弟说的那样,他的内心住着一个孩子。</h3> <h3>后来在北大84级校友全球插旗的活动中,他在西日本第一高楼展望台“插旗”。</h3> <h3>再后来,我们通过微信有不少交流。他让我帮他找人;我邀请他进入几个北大84群;他给我转发一些帖子和文章.....。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>他经常发朋友圈,记录每天的点点滴滴。我记得去年底他母亲去世前后,他的朋友圈透出的痛苦和伤感。母亲走了之后,他花上一个多月的时间,把他母亲曾经生活过的地方全部走了一遍。</h3> <h3>我没有见过他,但是觉得他就像是一个老朋友。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>如今,这位老朋友走了,留下了深深的惋惜和悲伤。</h3> <h3><b>下面是北大84级校友悼念屈木禾。</b></h3> <h3>方红:</h3><h3>2019年12月30日,我和老胡在长沙探亲,老屈办完母亲的丧事,正驱车南下,从北京开往深圳。我们约在住的酒店见面。这就成了我们见的最后一面。<br></h3> <h3>孔方:</h3><h3>我和木木大学四年常混在一起。他来自长春,那也是我的出生地。木木和我很多在长春的幼儿园发小儿都是同学。木木人品非常好,善良正直谦逊,大学四年我们天天和他开玩笑,他从未急过一次,是我见过最友善的人之一。前阵他突然神隐,我们几个还在群里到处问他跑哪去了,怎想到他竟这样弃我们而去!我真想再狠狠骂他一顿!他怎么可以这样!!!<br></h3><h3><br></h3><h3>木木内心纯善柔软,品性高洁自律,他一直不能和这个污浊的世界很好相容。祝愿他在天国能获得安宁和祥和。<br></h3> <h3>张达红:</h3><h3>我在大学里跟他没怎么说过话,后来有了微信,他也加入了我们未名诗社,互动才多起来。最近我还纳闷他怎么不在微信上出现了,真后悔没有去关心他一下。<br></h3> <h3>朱杰:</h3><h3>真是痛心!惋惜!老屈性格直率,忧国忧民,看到江河日下而又无力回天,他代表了很多尚存良知的当代知识分子的心态;他是一个心地善良单纯的人,帮助同学,助人为乐;他在英语系的时候自学世界语,又精通日语,上大课永远坐在第一排,严谨的治学态度令人钦佩。老同学,不舍得你走啊!<br></h3> <h3>关小众:</h3><h3>我是去年深秋区勇来波特兰时,闲聊中才了解屈木禾自己就有比较严重的抑郁症。这种情况还一心想着帮助同学,给同学以温暖。没想到未能哪怕微信一聊,就永别了 。<br></h3> <h3>高红:</h3><h3>因为汪勇,有幸认识了屈木禾,并和他多次语音聊天。为他的热心感动,为他的离去惋惜,天堂没有痛苦,愿大哥一路走好!!!<br></h3> <h3>屈乐伟:</h3><h3>今年4月6日,屈木禾因为在群中看到了同姓同学加了我微信,当时我正在外面散步,简单聊了几句约定我回家后联系。晚上我们聊了尽一个小时的语音,溯源后虽确定来自不同支系,但均为联系到同姓校友而兴奋,并约适当时间见个面。疫情一直在持续,面没见成却闻噩耗。木禾兄弟安息!<br></h3> <h3>陈晓军:</h3><h3>我和老屈是大二下半年认识的。大二下半年的体育课改革,分成若干个兴趣小组,我选择了乒乓球。记得第一次课大家循环赛,名次相邻的分成一组,每次上课对打。我和老屈全班最后两名,成了一对,每星期打一次球。一晃这么多年。有些心酸,不说了吧。老屈,我们怀念你,你听得到吗?<br></h3> <h3>李菲菲:</h3><h3>悼不曾相识的屈同学 带着浅浅的微笑 他走向天堂。 那一段光影交错的路 写满了沧桑。 希望—絶望—抛弃理想, 回归母亲的怀抱, 让思想自由飞翔。 —-Frances 28/7/2020 🙏🙏🙏㊗️他天堂里安息 </h3><h3><br></h3> <h3><b>下面是屈木禾的高中校友回忆他。</b></h3> <h3>刘建伟:屈木禾给我留下最深印象的是在中学的运动会上,长跑他每次都参加,晓辉第一名,他永远是倒数第一名,总是整个运动场就剩下他一个人,他还是默默的自己跑到终点,不放弃,这样的人竟然放弃了自己的生命!给我的印象是意志坚强!🙏🙏🙏<br></h3> <h3>曾春欣:听到这个消息非常难过。我是木禾的中学同学,不久前他加入了我们的同学群,大家一起热聊,他风趣话多,可爱至极。难以相信这么一个活生生的人就这么走了,心痛悲哀。木禾安息🙏</h3> <h3>刘洪川:震惊、悲伤。 虽然这么多年少有他的音讯,但一直记得木禾学生时代的形象:大大的脑袋,厚厚的眼镜,谦逊朴实勤奋。晓辉高考那年附中文科班只有二十多人,却考上八个北大的。没想到天妒英才,接连走了两位学长。</h3> <h3><b>北大“大纽约未名诗社”的吊唁函</b></h3> <h3>亲爱的本禾和家人,</h3><h3> 我们是北京大学大纽约未名诗社,北京大学大纽约地区校友会旗下的文学组织。惊闻木禾去世的消息,我们十分震惊, 也十分悲痛!木禾生前是诗社的活跃成员,常在诗社微信群帖发他的诗作,并不时和诗友们分享他的旅历和生活心得。木禾的真诚、睿智、博学、严谨和对生活赤子般的热爱让诗友们对他敬爱有加,他的面对现实敢于直言的勇气更是令诗友们钦佩。木禾的一生,给家人和世界留下了他严谨求知、踏实工作的丰硕成果,也留下了他挚爱的漫游四海的风趣采风。我们会永远记得木禾,也会永远怀念他! 亲人逝世,人生苦痛。我们对木禾的逝世表示深切的哀悼,也祈愿您和家人节哀保重。 木禾安息。 北京大学大纽约未名诗社全体 二零二零年七月二十七日 </h3><h3><br></h3> <h3><b>下面是屈木禾的诗歌。</b></h3> <h3> 问 原来 我总在问 夜 为何这样长 天 何时才能亮 如今 我终于 看到了曙光 我总算 盼到了希望 当 毒霾涤荡当 瘴疠扫光 人间正道 遍历沧桑 东方之珠 依然闪亮 無敵 庚子年正月十四日 屈木禾于深圳湾两岸<br></h3> <p style="max-width: 100%; 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background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">春天里的夏天</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">哪个更</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">烦</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">半百人的前瞻</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">和</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">百岁佬的后盼</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">哪个更</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">慢</span></span></span></h3><p style="max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; text-align: center; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(61, 170, 214); font-size: 12px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 14px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br></span></span></span></h3> <p style="max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; text-align: center; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(61, 170, 214); overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><strong style="max-width: 100%; font-size: 12px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 17.12px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; font-size: 16px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">覆颠</span></strong><span style="max-width: 100%; font-size: 13px; line-height: 13.91px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">色彩斑斓的日子</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">搅乱</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">没有亮点的日子</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">迫不及待的春天</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">点燃</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">久候不来的春天</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">米寿无恙的生命</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">哀叹</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">五秒扼息的生命</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">枯荣无常的草原</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">掀翻</span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></span><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">一马平川的草原</span></span></span></span></h3><p style="max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; text-align: center; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(61, 170, 214); overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; line-height: 14.98px; font-family: SimSun; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><br></span></span></span></span></h3> <p style="text-align: center; margin-bottom: 14px; font-size: 22px; line-height: 1.4; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"><b>腊八夜感怀十四行</b></h3><h5 style="text-align: center; margin-bottom: 14px; font-size: 22px; line-height: 1.4; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"></h5><h2 class="rich_media_title" id="activity-name" style="text-align: center; margin-bottom: 14px; font-size: 22px; line-height: 1.4; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"></h2> <p style="text-align: center; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="max-width: 100%; color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;">在这深冷的严冬</span><br style="max-width: 100%; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></h3><p style="max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; text-align: justify; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"></h3><div style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: -apple-system-font, BlinkMacSystemFont, &quot;Helvetica Neue&quot;, &quot;PingFang SC&quot;, &quot;Hiragino Sans GB&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei UI&quot;, &quot;Microsoft YaHei&quot;, Arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">赶一段不远不近的路程</span></div><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">一边是雪</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">一边是冰</span></div></span><div style="text-align: center;"><font color="#383838" face="gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"><br></span></font></div><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">在这高冷的夜空</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">谱一曲不明不白的人生</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">一半清醒</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">一半迷朦</span></div></span><div style="text-align: center;"><font color="#383838" face="gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"><br></span></font></div><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">那大脚踩下的油门踏蹬</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">幻化出何等</span><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">的激情</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">那扑逝而去的电柱街灯</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">撩拨了怎样的梦境</span></div></span><div style="text-align: center;"><font color="#383838" face="gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal;"><br></span></font></div><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">行板如歌</span></div></span><span style="color: rgb(56, 56, 56); font-family: gotham, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.544px; white-space: normal; max-width: 100%; font-size: 14px; line-height: 22px; overflow-wrap: break-word !important;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.544px;">岁月如风</span></div></span> <h3><b>当路程结束的时候,留下的是诗。</b></h3><h3><br></h3><h3>就用老木頭的这句话来做结尾吧。</h3><h3><br></h3><h3>安息。</h3>