<p>It seems that I’ve lived a carefree life for these years. However, it comes to me suddenly that I could seldom make my own choice.</p><p><br></p><p>When I graduated from middle school, I was not free to choose a distant college.</p><p>When I wanted to study for a PHD abroad, I was not free to have advanced study without getting married at a so-called appropriate age.</p><p>When I intended to accept the love from an adorable guy, I was not free to start a relationship unless my family said “Yes.” </p><p><br></p><p>Who is to blame? I can only say myself. </p><p><br></p><p>I’m not independent enough to deal with all kinds of stuffs on my own.</p><p>I’m not brave enough to face the risk of being single at an embarrassing age.</p><p>I’m not strong enough to ensure myself a promising future financially and mentally, not to mention the confidence in providing my lover with happiness or the commitment that I will never be unsatisfied with both of us.</p><p><br></p><p>So, I know. It’s my problem. I’m not good enough, so I don’t deserve the absolute freedom. It sounds a little bit pessimistic, but it’s true.</p><p><br></p><p>I’m gonna change it.</p><p>I’ve always been good at making plans and putting them into practice.</p><p>So...</p><p><br></p><p>I will study every day to become professional and indispensable in my field.</p><p>I will learn from wise minds by reading and communicating with distinguished people.</p><p>I will try different things to expand possibilities of my life.</p><p>I will remind myself of holding on my dream by going step by step.</p><p><br></p><p>Yes, that’s the right thing to do.</p><p>Prepare a better me for the choices around the corner.</p>